almost lover

forgive me love (repost)

I, went to your house
Walked up the stairs
Opened the door without ringing the bell
Walked down the hall
Into your room
Where I could smell you

And I, I shouldn't be here
Without permission
I shouldn't be here?

Would you forgive me love?
If I dance in your shower
Would you forgive me love?
If I laid in your bed
Would you forgive me love?
If I stayed all afternoon oh

I took off my clothes
Put on your robe
Went through your drawers
And I found your cologne
Went down to the den
Found your cds
And I played your Joni
And I shouldn't stay long
You might be home soon
I shouldn't stay long

Would you forgive me love?
If I dance in your shower
Would you forgive me love?
If I laid in your bed
Would you forgive me love?
If I stayed all afternoon

I burned your incense
I ran a bath
I notice a letter that sat on your desk
It said hello love
I love you so love
Meet me at midnight
And no, it wasn't my writing,
I better go soon
It wasn't my writing

So forgive me love
If I cry in your shower
So forgive me love
For the salt in your bed
So forgive me love
If I cry all afternoon oh

Song

Love me with your whole heart
or give me no love to me,
Half-love is a poor thing,
Neither Bond nor free
you must love me gladly
soul & body too,
or else find a new love,
and good-by to you

acceptance

 

Pain in relationships can either be categorized into letting go or moving on.  Letting go is sacrificing what was rightfully yours while moving on is forgetting what was never even yours to begin with.

But both prospects involve accepting in order to heal. Accepting that the person can never be yours or never will be yours again is the first step.

Acceptance is the hardest part especially when our emotions get the better of us.  It is like holding on to something which pains you – it is like struggling in the middle of the ocean wanting to live, wanting to be saved but the other person is at the shore just watching us drown.  It is like gripping onto the thorny rose knowing that we are bleeding but we still hold onto it believing that we would get the sweetest smell out of it.  But the irony of it is that no matter how much we want, no matter how much we need, no matter how much we desire, and no matter how much we love, we end up getting hurt and alone.

Maybe we did something wrong.  Maybe we were just meant to be taught a lesson but every pain that lurks in our hearts we wished that broken hearts can be mended by band aids like skinned knees.  But maybe just maybe we are still hoping that in the end they can be ours.  Sadly, no matter how we wish for our fairy tale ending it will never happen.

After few quiet moments, after a few “me” times, we get to the point of realization that what we want will sometimes not be ours so it’s best to let things go because they are not ours and are not meant to be in our lives.  Some are just passing by, some are just teaching us lessons, some are just stopping for a moment or two but no matter what their purpose in our life is, it is better to accept that there are instances in our lives that we have to let go or move on. 

Time heals all wounds, so they say, but accepting what has happened to our lives is one thing we should learn to do whether you loved deeply or got hurt badly, once in our lives we are hurt, once in our lives we are bruised but no matter how bruised or hurt we are in the end we get to stand up and live again and love again.

i hate her...

I hate her when she says she loves me

i hate her when i feel the warmth of her touch during cold nights

i hate her cause i still feel her kisses and caress when sunset comes

i hate her cause she has given me the strength to endure all odds

i hate her coz she taught me how to love

i hate her coz she showed me the true meaning of love

i hate her when she pushes me away when in fact she wants me to be there

i hate her when she makes me cry

i hate her when she accepted me for who i am

i hate her when she cries because she makes me want to hug her just tight

i hate her coz she's leaving me without even saying goodbye

i hate her when she makes me laugh when im down

i hate her coz we've shared lots of ups & downs

i hate her when she pouts her lips because it softens me

i hate her when she wants an ice cream during stormy days

i hate her coz she taught me how to love & treasure her

i hate her when i asks her to stay but she wouldn't listen

i hate her when she has tantrums that drive me crazy

i hate her sweetness on hot summer afternoons

i hate her when she calls me at 3am that makes me sleepless the whole day

i hate her coz she's my life

these are the things i hate about her which just makes me love her more.